I’m a Failure (You might be one, too!)
| I had a very interesting experience this past weekend attending a conference for female coaches. Honestly, I was only interested in one aspect of this presenter’s work that I wanted to learn more about. So I was prepared to suffer through the rest of the weekend, waiting to get to the good stuff. Not only was I pleasantly surprised by the event, but I came to understand one aspect of myself I really hadn’t understood before. I AM A FAILURE. No, I don’t mean that literally. I have always believed myself to be a successful person. I started out life with two goals–to be a writer and a teacher. I continue to be both. I have worked with countless women (well, I haven’t counted them) to help them actualize their own dreams and goals. I have two beautiful children and a loving family. What’s to complain about? Nothing really. Except that when I think about the recent challenges that I have faced in my life and in my business, I know that, like many of the women that I work with, something has been holding me back from taking my work to the next level. Part of it was pandemic trauma, but I also knew it was something else, as well, a form of self-sabotage that I couldn’t identify or explain. We often talk about being conscious co-creators of our own lives, to combat what I call the “hidden script” that plays out in our lives without us knowing the whole story, only feeling something is off. For me, that hidden script was I AM A FAILURE. If you are a failure, you can’t be responsible when things inevitably go wrong or backfire. It’s not your fault if when you half-ass something and plans fall through because you were going to fail anyway. You can’t be blamed if you don’t move forward because your efforts weren’t going to turn out like you wanted anyway, so why bother? You can’t be disappointed if you don’t really try. I had become the one thing I find genuinely intolerable–a toe-dipper! I am so grateful for this weekend’s revelation because once you recognize the hidden script, you can always rewrite it. But that doesn’t mean you start affirming yourself to be the opposite of whatever script you’ve been acting out. It does me no real good to claim I AM SUCCESSFUL! In truth, I am successful, but we’re not examining a logical or rational statement here, but a conviction of the soul. The truth of the matter is that I have the tools and the resources to overcome any barriers or blocks that stand in my way. This is a more valuable statement to me, as it contains the possibility of growth and elevation to deal with whatever happens. You may find that you have been living a hidden script, yourself, such as I am not enough; I am invisible; I’m not worthy, or even I am a failure. But you don’t have to keep living that untruth. You can rewrite your story to embrace the real, authentic you-ness of your life and your work on this planet. Here’s another bit of truth for you. You came to this world a Goddess, with all the rights, powers, and privileges of the Sacred Feminine! You can rise above any challenge set before you with the love and support of the Universe. Contact me at dee@deesavoie.com if you need some help figuring out how. |
